Sunday, July 8, 2012

I Will be Beautiful Again...

I started another blog. It's much different then this one. It's going to be my weight loss diary. You can find it here. I need to make a change in my life. I will still have this blog. I will still vent, bitch and moan on this one.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Just a little vent....

I'm going to just get it all the fuck out. Shits been building up for a long ass time. If you're reading it and don't like it or have a problem with what I'm saying, you're more then welcome to hit that little red x at the top right of the screen ;) I don't even know where to start, but here it goes....

1) People need to stop getting fucking ass hurt over uhhh nothing. Nothing at all. Just get the fuck over it. There's a lot of shit I'd like to fucking say but I hold shit back when I talk to certain people. Maybe I should just be as blunt as possible for now on. If I hurt your feelings, that's nice, get over it :) The bitch switch is officially on mother fuckers.
2) I married my husband, for him. Not for his family. I'll be honest, if I were to marry him for his family we wouldn't be fucking married. Theres only a handful of people I actually like in his family.
3) Don't fucking tell me how to raise my kid or how to parent. I'm pretty sure my child is fine the way she is. Just because "you're a nurse" or know "everything about kids" doesn't mean you can fucking tell me how to be a mom to mine. Last I checked she's perfectly fucking fine, healthy and living. I don't give a rats ass about your opinion and don't give two shits about how you raise your kid. So, I let my kid run around fucking naked in the privacy of our own home, who the fuck cares? It's not your God damn carpet she's pissing on, right? My kid is still on a bottle at age 13 months, who the fuck cares. She's more then welcome to be on that shit until she's 4 for all I care. You can try to tell me how to raise my kid, but it's all going threw one ear and out the other. Mind your own, okay?! Last time I checked, which was now, you haven't earned the mother of the fucking year award, have you?! Nope, you haven't.
4) I'd really like to just punch some people in their throat to make them just shut the fuck up sometimes. There's obviously a reason why I don't talk to you. Maybe you should take a hint when I give you one word answers or I just ignore you completely.
5) STUPIDER ISN'T A FUCKING WORD. Learn proper fucking English people. It's "more stupid". I just had to get that out there ;)
6) People really drive me nuts. As you can tell from this post. I can't fucking wait to take my 10 day vacation to NH. Wednesday can't come fast enough. I need to socialize with people who have a brain, are sane, aren't trashy and who won't give a shit how I am.
7) I'm so sick of trying to put on an act to "impress" people. It's not even about impressing them. It's the fact that I can't be myself around certain people or all hell will break loose. If you don't like who I really am, then tough shit. I'm not here on this earth to make you satisfied. Last time I checked it doesn't rain fucking lollipops and gum drops.
8) I can't fucking stand Arizona. Holy shit it's so damn hot here. I feel like an egg on a frying pan when I walk outside. I can't wait to move back to NH. I'm moving no matter what, my husband can either come with me or not.
9) The word fuck was invented for a reason. Yeah I use it a lot. It's pretty much stuck in my vocabulary.
10) My Facebook is MINE. Don't like what I say on it, tough shit. There's an unfriend button for a reason. Why don't you just click that little sucker and move on with your life. I'm pretty sure I can post what I want, when I want.
11) My iPad is the fucking shit. I had to put it out there. This little thing is the shit. I recommend everyone gets one.

Okay, vent is done. It feels so good to get shit off my shoulders. There will be plenty more to come. Now I need to give my living room some TLC. See ya ;)

Monday, May 28, 2012


There's a ton to talk about!

So I'm officially a married woman. It's been almost a month. I'm still not use to my new last name. Our wedding was fun. A lot of people came (I hardly knew any of them since only a few people from our family came due to work schedules). The DJ played awesome dance music. My best friend was my maid of honor. She was my night in shining pink dress every time I needed to pee, lip gloss re-touch, or to vent too on how much I hate some of Raymond's family every time they walked by us. Chloe was our flower girl. She was too cute the whole night. I was so happy that my cousin could be in the wedding. I love my family for taking time out to come to Arizona for our wedding weekend. My girls from school came and we all had a blast together. Overall, it was a good time.
I'll post some pictures tomorrow!

Our honeymoon cruise was AMAZING! We had so, so soooooo much fun. I'll also post pictures of that.

Chloe is ONE. Can you believe it? I sure as hell know I don't. Her birthday was on Saturday (May 26th). She had an awesome birthday party. It was a pink zebra party. She had fun and loved eating cake. It's so sad knowing that she is growing up. I want her to stay little for ever. I wish she would. She's almost walking, she talks now, drinks out of a sippy, has the funniest personality, ugh, this makes me sad thinking about her growing up and doing even more then she does now.
I'll post pictures of her zebra-riffic party.

Hmm, what else to quickly update about....?

Oh, I'm going to be taking on two schools at once. I'll be doing day classes for CNA and continuing my night classes for cosmetology. I'm officially on the salon floor now working on clients. I can't wait to be graduated. March can't come fast enough.

Ray and I are house hunting. We're hoping that by Thanksgiving time we're in our own house. We've been doing some looking around and have found a few we really like. I can't wait to have a yard, that's all I want, is a yard. I want to get a play set for Chloe and have a garden. I really want a garden. Is that so hard to ask for!? I don't think so. Ray wan't to make sure we have a 3 bed room so he can have his mancave. Or at least a garage for his mancave. I told him that was fine as long as I can decorate the house. Hello zebra print!

I need to finish laundry, yep at 11 at night I'm still doing laundry. So I'll blog tomorrow.

Tootles bloggers :)

Friday, April 20, 2012

Laptop Problems!....

Wondering where I've been? Well my laptop took a nice long shit for a few weeks.
I'm super sick of my laptop crashing and having tons of problems. It's a pain in my ass! I finally had the major heat problem fixed with it and hopefully (crossing my fingers) nothing else goes wrong with it.

Chloe is doing fantastic! She's growing like a little weed, talking up a storm and going to walk all by herself any day now. Just an update on some of the words she says (at 10 months old): Mama, Dada, Nana, Papa, Poop, Dog, Hi, Bye, No & Ya. I've probably missed a few. She knows animal sounds too, thanks to my Dad teaching them to her! You say "What does the cow say?" and she'll go "Moooo". Her favorite is the sheep, she'll go "ahhhhhhhhh" instead of "bahhhh". She's too funny. Chloe also knows how to whisper now. You say "Chloe, lets whisper" (in a whisper tone) and she'll make all her noises in a whisper until she notices you talking regularly. She has been off baby food and 100% on "big girl" food. Except her morning and night time bub's with her formula. The rest of the day is what ever I eat and water or VERY watered down apple juice. Some of her favorite foods are: banana, toast with grape jelly, eggs, potatoes, PICKLES (she's obsessed!!!!!!!), tomatoes, hamburger, chicken (grilled or a tad spicy), cheerios, pasta with a light sauce or pesto. The list goes on and on. Her pedi said it's 1000000% fine for her to eat anything and everything (besides nuts) she wants. She is an awesome eater!
Earlier (well right before I decided to post when I came home from school) I was looking at all of Chloe's baby, baby pictures. She was so tiny. I miss her being 5 pounds. My little lady is going to be one in a little over a month. Where has the time gone!? I miss her being super small, but I love how she's growing and learning so much. Her first birthday is already all planned out! I have Saturday the 26th of May (her birthday!!!!!) off from school since it's an "in service day" so we're going to spend the day at the zoo! She loves animals, especially all the goats and ones you can pet and interact with in the little kids petting zoo area. I know she'll enjoy it. Every time we go to the zoo (which is a lot since we get free passes from the library, saving us 60 bucks each time we want to go) she has a blast. She's always so wide eyed and smiling. She's a very alert and curious little girl. She stays very focused and interested in a lot of stuff. Which is surprising to me since she's only 10 months old. She is very, very smart and a very fast learner. I can't wait to get her into preschool so she can learn more and have little friends.
We've been going to the pool a lot lately and she found out (the first time she's been swimming since she was about 3/4 months old) that if she kicks her legs a certain way, her boat float will move her around the pool. She's very independent and loves figuring things out on her own. If I try to hep her or show her how to play with a toy or do something, she gets mad at me. I love watching her play and "talk" to her toys. She's in her own little world chit chatting with her blocks or anything for that matter that she's playing with. When we go to the park she loves exploring and crawling around in the sand. She figured out how to climb onto and up the slide. It's very funny to watch. More and more, she's becoming the spitting image and way I was as a child. Even though I was very behind as a baby due to all my mental and physical abuse, my parents keep saying Chloe is the exact same way I was at around 11-12 months old. She's also is IDENTICAL to me as a baby! I don't have many baby pictures of myself (well a couple I stole out of my parents file cabinet when I was searching for my birth mom and dad). I have a couple of me as a newborn then the rest of my pictures are from about 10 months old (maybe 11) and up. Chloe is identical to me. Especially the newborn pictures. She looked Mexican and so did I. I can't wait to see her grow up. I love my smart little lady.

Ray and I have been getting ready and finishing up last minuet things for the wedding. TWO weeks. AHHHHH! Time is going by so fast.

Oh crap, it's midnight. I'm going to hit the hay. We have a lot to do in the morning. We're getting our marriage license and meeting with our wedding coordinator so we can go over final details and give her a check for our venue.

I'm going to try to blog tomorrow. I have a lot to say, get off my chest, venting, bitching, yelling, happy thoughts and updates to type up! If I don't blog tomorrow, I will for sure Saturday once I'm out of school. Ah, shit, maybe not until late Saturday night. I get out of school at one and have my wedding shower at four. So I guess I'll be blogging when I get some free time. These next few weeks are going to be very busy!

Nighty night bloggers!